As this is being released I will be starting a new job. Having been out of work for three months due to redundancy I have had some time to enjoy family life and with all that has been going on in the last three months in some ways it was better that I wasn’t working.
Being out of work.
On the first day, first couple of weeks I was out of work it felt like a bit of a holiday, the routine of going to work every day was broken I was able to spend time with Oliver and get things ready around the house for the arrival of number two, as I called Leo then. Around three weeks in to the unemployed time was when Leo was born which of course was a fantastic time. So the time after that felt pretty much like the paternity leave I had had when Oliver was born, even though through both these times I was signing on and job hunting.
After everything had calmed down from the birth and we had got into a sort of routine including the appointments for Leo was when I started to feel a pressure to get a job. Now I hasten to add that I had no pressure from Keighley or external family members it was a pressure I subconsciously put on myself. After a month and a half of applying for jobs it really started to affect how I was feeling. All that kept coming to mind was they must think I’m rubbish or they would contact me to get me to come in for an interview, the lack of communication from companies is what I struggled with most, however when it felt I was at my lowest point I got a phone call from the company I start work with today, ‘Can you come in for an interview on Friday please?’ Said the voice on the other end of the phone ‘Yes’ I said. I went to the interview and then waited for a phone call, after about a week I thought oh well I did my best, however that was the day I got another phone call ‘can you come back for a second interview?’ ‘Yes’ was the reply again. So I went for the second interview and left thinking I am really not sure how I did there. The next day I waited for a phone call and by around 5 pm I thought I hadn’t got it. Around twenty minutes after that I got THE phone call. ‘I would like to offer you the job, if you would like it?’ said the voice ‘err Yes please’ was my reply. Now this was Saturday evening, can you start Tuesday ‘yes of course’.
So why is it that now I’m about to start a new job are my nerves are all over the place , it’s in retail for which I’ve worked in for fifteen years, so it’s nothing new, granted it’s a different area of retail one that I touched on briefly when in my last job. Is it a fear of the unknown or is it purely because I’ve been out of work for three months or a combination of both. One thing is for sure I’m going to grab the bull by the horns and make sure I do my best and also keep in mind that I’m doing it for the most important people in my world, which is my young family.