I’m about to write about something that I haven’t written about on here before and that is my faith.
I am a Christian, I’m gonna be honest I could be a better Christian but it is something I’m working on. I was baptised as a teenager and have always held a belief that Jesus is the Son of God and that the Earth was created by God. I don’t however go round declaring it straight off the bat but I do live my life to the values of Christianity.
Two years ago I was told about a course that the church of England run, it is called the Course in Christian Studies. It was designed to help people develop a further knowledge of their faith and how it impacts them and the world around them. During the last two years I have attended almost every Thursday and done coursework pieces and developed my understanding and knowledge of what the Christian faith and Church is about. One thing that has happened though is that my faith has been tested to the point I have been questioning my beliefs for the first time ever and it’s been a hard struggle and one I am still trying to come to terms with. When I started the course Oliver was around 5 months old and I was in what I thought was a stable job, within a couple of months of starting things began to change at work with more pressure being put on me and as a result this had an effect on not only the course but also my marriage. By the end of the first year I was seriously doubting whether I should continue but after the summer break with things going better both at work and at home with a new pregnancy I decided to continue and complete the course to the best of my ability.
I did this at the end of June this year and on Wednesday evening myself, my wife and my parents made the journey to Chelmsford Cathedral for the service of celebration and presentation of our certificates to say we’d completed the course. When we got there the Cathedral was packed and completely full which was an amazing sight and an amazing thing to think that so many people had also completed the course. Overall there must have been over 150 people who received certificates for completing the course. Although the course doesn’t given me a grade or a recognised qualification it does give me a sense of achievement that I now know a lot more about my faith even if it had taken a beating in the last two years.
The one thing that stood out for me at the service was one line that Bishop Stephen (The Bishop of Chelmsford) said and that was we may know everything but we know nothing. I think it’s very important to remember that regardless of how much we may think we know there is always more to learn ahead of us.